Woman - God Himself failed to find the meaning !!

Wah .... Never ever one can define a woman !!

Her heart is soo complicated that it can teach you anything !!

She is mom , sister , best friend , teacher , girl friend , soul mate ,

and wah ...

still dont know what a woman is ...

she is different and Godly ....

She loves you and kiss your heart .

What a heart ever wanted is never known in her absence ...

A heart's wave is started by her and she walks with it till you say no to her .

She makes you think what you thought is what you should not think !!

She makes you dream and comes in your dream to make sure you dream ...

She wakes you up with a deep lift which lifts your soul to lift the entire world !!

She is the God and Devil in you ...

She is the love and hate in you ...

She is the veins which decides where your blood should flow

She knows what you know to teach you what you never knew

She asks you to walk alone while hiding behind praying you to walk safe

She knows to cry like God and she knows to smile like a devil

She is the God and Devil in you ,

and yet you search for her , for her unknown meaning .....

Life is full-filled when and only when i know the true meaning of woman ....

For She is the only meaning , God himself never kew , for which he created the world 

                                                                                                            -------- Manu Sanju S 

Life is the Best Film

One's Own Life is the most beautiful film One can see ….

How many characters ....

How many emotions ….

How many breaks ....

It makes you crave for care, love , and 

It makes you raise your emotions for seeing your loved ones ,

It makes you cry for seeing your loved ones leaving you ,

It teaches you to sit calm to wait for breaks which might come or never comes ,

And it teaches you to accept unwanted breaks to make you bold to face breaks yet to come ,

In the end , It just matters how you watched your film , cause you are the film .....

What Came First ?

Literally this question troubled me from the time i remember ...
we are humans, we are in earth , earth is just a planet , among trillions of stars and galaxies ,
and from where it all started ?

this is one fucked up question .i usually think all these kind of wierd questions in te night .
cause it gets me sleep ... u can let ur imagination float in no where ....

God created all these ? Then How God formed ?
I am a believer of God ! I worship God ...
so I am not trying to proove anything here .... but just strange question !!
Its true that i have not got the answer ....

Big Bang Theory ....
ok what before that ?
nothing is impossible !!

yes .... nothing is impossible ....
so there could be no such answer as nothing ....
but there should be nothing !!

what came first ?

The Unwanted Visitor - Death

it was a long time ago ,

when i was in school …around 3rd or 4th standard !!

i was in kerala that time ….

a small boy who sits on the petrol tank of bike and gets driven all the way to school by his dad .

wearing a half pant or rather called a trouser , i usual get my legs heated up by the heat of the metal tank …

i remember a lady staying in a nearby house . she was of my mother's age that time .

she was a school teacher and she had a daughter of my age …

she likes me a lot . when ever she passes by my house , she stops by and gives me a toffee and pats on my head…

(i am sure she would not have liked me if she was my teacher :) )

i liked her too :) for that i have not seen someone who is a teacher and loves kids !! and more important , i get my toffee almost every day …

it was  a routine and it became like my right to get the toffee each time she see me or i see her …

days went by and i dint see her ….

i asked my mom one day about her …

i don't remember what my mom replied that day 

but i started forgetting her as days passed by….

she was no more coming that way and giving me toffee ….

fews days or months later ,  i was coming back from school and a stranger passes by and smiled at me …..

he was bald and lean and  he was actually accompanied by another fat man …..

i know this man …….

the fat man who accompanied the bald fellow was the husband of the lady who used to give me toffees

that day when mom came back from office, i asked her what i saw .

who is that and why was he holding another bald man ?

she said to my shock that the bald man i saw was actually the lady who used to give me toffee and she got cancer …

i knew it was not easy for me to understand what really happened …

i had many questions like , why she shaved her head ?

why would some one do like that to themselves ? 

i know that mom really tried to tell me what it is , but i was not convinced !!

what is cancer ?

how would people loose hair when cancer comes ?

what is this ?

i felt a little sad the next following days (now not for the toffee , but for her )

because when she smiled , the last time she saw me , i dint smile back , as i thought its some strange balm man smiling at me !!

i walked to her house .

i was not really bold to knock at the door , as i thought she would be angry seeing me , as i dint smile last time (i was silly as i was a kid)

i remember very clearly me going till that house but not knocking the door .

once or twice i saw one or two people standing outside the house , and when asked where the aunty is , they would say she is sleeping or something ….

few weeks back , i saw a crowd outside her house and i came to know that she is dead .

life is not so easy all the times , right ?

the most important thing in life is relationships ….

it could be anyone - friends , family , relatives, teachers ,  anyone …..

its like how much happiness you got from someone in your life time, u will face that much pain all together when you loose them !!

death is a strange visitor

It comes as a surprise to our life and takes us leaving all our life behind there ….

there are no doors which can be closed n front of that visitor .

everything right now is right now .

there could be no later .

we can always know the first , but we never know the last.

we will never know the last time we see someone …..

its better to love everyone and expect nothing back ….

happy to live the moment to write this :)

when i realise now that the old man was the same lady i used to see and get toffees from daily ,

but i dint smile back when she smiled the last time , its something not explainable 

it doesn't change anything or it is not much of sense here …

But i know that life is like a movie played with no fast forward , rewind , pause buttons and we are audience glued to seats and when the movie ends , it ends for ever :)

crazy :)

Leryn Franco , an Olympic Sensation or Sense of a Nation

Olympics opening ceremony ....
Once created a wave , can strike when it gets a chance .

I am talking about the much talked 2008 Olympics  Javelin player , Leryn Franco

No offence , But my entire mood of watching the opening ceremony was turned into something else !!
I cant take blames here ! She was too hot to wear that sizzling hot red dress . It just made her too hot. And the camera man did a really good job on good focusing !!

Thanks to Paraguay for understanding her abilities and give her the right place to play !
She made a huge wave in 2008 , and now she has done it again !!

Do what ever you want

This part of writing gives me real happiness. I am going to express a true lot of incidents and accidents in my path towards finding myself !!

My Life was an unplanned trip. Always ends up with something less or more !!

But it really worked for me . It gave me a hidden truthful lesson to get a prepared trip !!

Now I believe that am walking though a planned path . A seat in the great Film and Television Institute of India, Pune for Sound recording Course . A supportive group of people around, a good vision and a 5 year plan in heart , a laptop to scribble all I want and a place to post all my thoughts J

But to reach here , it took a lot out of me !!

But before I talk a lot about myself , let me tell you something very clearly .

Even now , what I say or claim as a planned path is a planned path for just me J

For my relatives and even for my mother , it’s the most stupid decision I have or anyone could possible take in ones  life . But I have been a stupid for myself all these years , until now J

So stupidity is subjective and as I am writing here , I am subjective over my side J

I always had a coffee and chat with the toughest times ….

It gives a one to one dealing with how you can be more crazier J

Days just went and I loved the craziness in me .

I started understanding that I am not dead and I have something in me to live for …

A deep passion , like we heard in the movie INCEPTION J

An idea …. An Idea , once implanted into ones mind, is soo powerful that it can change a lot J

I have a kid within me yelling out for a lot different things .

Having nothing was always my feel , when everyone described me as the perfect life with everything

A day or the other I ask myself , is it worth to do what ever we want ?

If it makes you happy and feel like living , yes !

If it makes you feel good , and do more, yes ….

I had unhappy days of doing all sort of things which never wabted to do, but did .

Starting from changing of many schools in my life (I finished my schooling in a total of 4 schools), followed by getting into engineering college instead of an arts of college , then going to a regular job sitting in front of computers and not doing anything creative at all ….

Life was horrible . But in between I tried to do something which makes me feel good.

Watching movies always was a medicine for me .

I got my queen of my life , and I met her during my first job in software .

The only reason I have to say that I am happy about my first job J

Then it was her inspiration to find a better me in me !

She found my interest in music and sound recording .

It was during my first job in a company called UST Global, when I was a little active in singing, composing and recording songs and sounds , that I found my good interest lies in Sound recording .

I bought a Philips Dynamic Microphone – SBC MD150 from Music world and a sennheiser headphones !!I dint know what to do with it , but I wanted to record professional quality sound .

I bought some headphones , and some wires and joined a guitar class .

I recorded some sounds , but it dint really come up well.

Noise was every where !!

Then I decided to do something for this .

Then came FTII …..

A new chapter in my life .

It was on 2008 …

I was researching in internet over this , and she pointed out FTII is the best place to learn about sound recording !!

Then I did some research and understood what she said is right !!

But we came to know the sad news that just 2 days back they closed the intake of forms for that year . Thus we missed the deadlines …

Then waited for one long year , and gave my first attempt , years went on and many things happened in my life – Both good and Bad ….

And this year , I am getting into FTII .

Finally the question is

Are you happy ?

Yes , I am …..

That’s all it takes and matters

Do what ever you want ………….

Story is not over yet and will never be :)

Gangs of Wasseypur’s 16 year old treasure

Gangs of Wasseypur’s 16 year old treasure

When I heard the news that Sneha Khanwalkar is doing the music for the next Anurag’s movie, I was sure that she will come up with something really good . But this is great .

Following the same trends is good, it will give you success and name .

But getting something out of your own , might not always guarantee you a great success , but a high level of satisfaction . In her case , It gave her both- success as well as satisfaction .

I am talking about the 16 year old girl named – Durga .

Her high pitched rustic voice was heard by thousands and thousands of locals travelling by Mumbai Trains . She is actually from South India . Like Jamal and Salim of Slumdog Millionaire travelling though their life in trains , she travelled sweeting the ears of local Mumbai travellers !!

And it was in one such local train that Anand Surapur (Director/Producer) met her , which was when her train took a U-turn !!

Now her voice is viral over the internet ….

Her voice is famous through the song – Chi Cha Leather !!

If you hear the song, you will feel that you have heard such a voice before !!

Where else , must be when you are travelling by some trains .

And you will also realise the fact that you have not even given the child anything !!

But the point is that this reveals one beautiful fact !!

There is something beautiful inside everyone

Either you find it , or someone else finds it.

In both the cases , you have found you .

Find yourself ….

This time when I was coming from Pune back to Chennai, I met a small boy who attached a tail behind and walked and sang songs like Hanuman (Hindu God) . I also saw some making fun of him . But I loved him , as he was very keen in getting all the attention and doing really good on what he does . I don’t really want to go deep into the regular talks of travellers like – We should not entertain beggers , or people like these . But I gave him 10 rupee . It was just for his guts or fate to attach a tail behind him, while children of his age would attach bags filled with books and tiffen boxes filled with protein rich food prepared by their mom !!

Keepint this in mind is always really good .

Everyone have something within him or her .

You might be good at something .

But he/she might be good at something else .

Respect yourself and others

Durga’s album is about to be released soon .

She is not going to sing for you in local trains for free any more J

Let her have a great life ahead .